Happy & Sad Dreams

Hey friends,

Sorry, this blog has been inactive the past month or so. I’ve been prioritizing other projects and IGOTAJOB.

Not saying what this job is at until I’ve finalized paperwork…mostly because my brain is still telling me that it’s not real even though I know it is. It probably won’t feel real until the first day of work which is coming up on March 13. In the meantime, I’m moving to New York City without a place to stay and lots of craziness as a result. Well, that’s not entirely true…I have family in Connecticut that is letting me crash there for a couple days while my dad and I go apartment searching. After that, the only plans are to make an Airbnb reservation for the rest of the month. I leave for the city this Sunday, March 6th. Life has gone from 5 mph to 100 mph what feels like overnight.

To say I’m excited is an understatement. I’m absolutely terrified too. But the good kind of terror. The kind of terror that you just are so excited to pursue that you’re running at a cliff full speed with only a very thin bungee cord and a very brief safety talk. I’m so unprepared but so ready to spring at this opportunity. Life is going to be insane for the next month and I will be updating this blog as much as possible.

I’m thinking about daily uploads here again. Ones that function similar to a journal so that I don’t forget all the little details and moments of the move and memories I’m about to make. I am so ignorant right now of all the business and movement New York City is going to hit me over the head with, but I’m so excited to try my best and live there.

In other news, a sad one, some of my childhood is leaving me. My favorite video store, The Video Station is closing. It hurts like hearing a friend has passed to know that my weekends will never again hear “Can you pick up _____ film/movie/tv show from the Video Station?”

It’s a relic that shaped my childhood, my dreams, inspiring me, and gave me a goal I didn’t realize I had. I want to design title sequences at some point during my art journey and the movie magic love comes from this place. I owe The Video Station for teaching me about stories. It’s a library of artistic moments that have shaped some of the stories I tell today. My dad said it sadly, “I will no longer look forward to Friday evenings.” It’s true. Every time I’ve left Boulder some of the things I miss most are watching videos and TV with the family, eating dinner, and going for walks with the pets and my mother. But crowding around the TV to watch a film my dad grabbed from The Video Station was always something I loved. Fresh popcorn (not that microwave kind), green apples, blankets with the lights low all huddled on the couch to anticipate the film found on the shelves of this place.

It’s sad to hear, not something unexpected, but sad. I’m sorry that it happened and some part of me wants to find a way to fight back, but I’m not sure how. How do you bring a video store back when everyone wants convenience? I’ll admit Netflix is easier to watch sometimes, but it’s never had all the titles I want to see. There’s no charming surprise of a title there, just algorithms that tell me what I’ve already seen in a different form. I’ll miss the recommendations and the charm of browsing, finding that story I didn’t know I wanted to watch.

To The Video Station, Thank you for giving me a foundation of stories to live by. Horse films that I rented out constantly, horror and sci-fi I couldn’t get instantly from Netflix, foreign films I’ve never heard of, and stories that bring me joy. Thank you for being here and I’ll miss you greatly, old friend.



Oscar Lettering for Inside Out

I found one of the quotes I wanted to illustrate from the Oscars.

“There are days you’re going to feel sad, you’re going to feel angry, you’re going to feel scared, that’s nothing you can choose. But you can make stuff. Make films. Draw. Write. It’ll make a world of difference. ” — Pete Docter, best animated feature winner for Inside Out

There’s a couple more, but I didn’t have time for them tonight. I hope this quote inspires you as much as it did me.

I’m Disappointed in Netflix

My family recently acquired a free trial of Netflix, both good and bad (yay distractions), but I’m officially disappointed. You know why? Because I love oldies and oh my, Netflix, seriously lacks in the oldies. Of course there’s a few like watching Freaks & Geeks, but if I want to watch some great Buster Keaton there’s a single movie there…and it’s not even one of the ones I want to see. (Not that I’m super surprised, a lot of people don’t know who he is.) Also, we’ll we are on the subject of classic black & white comedians there’s no Charlie Chaplin. Although, I prefer Buster Keaton, but seriously?

Here’s a 90’s classic I’m frustrated with not seeing there, The Sandlot. They have the bad version, Sandlot 2, but who want’s to see a terrible remake? I certainly don’t. Sorry, I’m ranting instead of discussing stories for today’s post. But, I have a little point to the stories. The thing is that I watch a lot of movies for great stories, and while getting this free trial has certainly exposed me to lots of shows I haven’t gotten to see. One being, Breaking Bad, but I’m also a fan of classic stories, which Netflix seems to neglect. They don’t even have the classic Alfred Hitchcock of Rope or The Birds there. These are classic stories that I feel like any film lover should see. Just to get a glimpse into some of the best stories that last the test of time.

I do see some positives to Netflix, not all negatives here. I enjoy that there are some films I haven’t seen in ages like Johnny English and The Adams Family. I think Netflix is great for binge watching. I’m a massive fan of not leaving my house for days on end so I can watch all of Dexter in one sitting. There’s also the added plus of watching films in a higher quality and on the TV, where a lot of times I find myself watching a very low res version somewhere in the depths of the crazy internet or in pieces all over Youtube. So, there’s pluses to being able to watch very recent shows that are harder find online in an actual good quality. If you’re a fan of recent stuff I do think Netflix offers a great price to see all of those shows.

I know that people who are classic film lovers aren’t necessarily their target demographic, but I still feel like Netflix is missing out on a lot of things. I’m just really disappointed for all the hype I hear, and it honestly makes me sad. The way they market Netflix makes it seem as if they have every single movie people want to see, but from what I’ve seen there’s only a fraction of films to watch online.

So, I’m gonna stop ranting because I have to go off and do some other things, but I do wonder what classic movie lovers do? I at least have access to the Video Station here in CO, but with many places like Blockbuster gone where do you go get classic films? There are film festivals, but if I just want to see a classic on demand why isn’t there a service that has tapped into that? Or maybe Netflix should expand their classic library and recommend more old stories for people? Or do you go to your local library? I don’t know, but this is something that’s been bothering me a lot lately.